Mouse Trap

For the past couple of weeks, I have had a furry, little critter living in my apartment. This is problematic for many reasons (the major one being that I live in a small, studio apartment). The first time I saw the rodent in question, I thought it was a hallucination. I was not expecting to see gray blur scuttle across my kitchen floor, so I was able to push the thought out of my head and assume I was seeing things (which has been known to happen on occasion).

Last week, I was doing work on my computer when I heard a rustling sound coming from my kitchen area. I slowly crept around the corner and lo and behold saw a tiny mouse trying to escape from my back door. I tried to just open the door and let it free but, of course, that was too easy. For the next week, it tormented every waking moment I spent in my apartment. I would hear it moving around and see it scurrying out of the corner of my eye.

I tried to take the advice of Adventurous Kate and live in harmony with the mouse, but such liberal friendships have never been my forte. After I discovered it eating my Ramen noodles, I launched full-scale warfare. I set several mouse traps: from cheese traps to glue traps to poison pellets. Nothing seemed to trap this demon of the darkness. Its appetite for my food only fueled my appetite for revenge. I disrupted my entire lifestyle at home by keeping all my food locked in a cabinet, eating off of paper plates so I didn’t leave crumbs behind, and putting plastic bags all over my floor so I could hear any unwanted movement.

Even with all my defenses in place, this mouse would not be caught. I felt like I was had replaced Nathan Lane in Mouse Hunt. Then just last night as I was getting ready for bed, I saw something peculiar in the space between my kitchen and living area: the mouse latched onto one of the glue traps. Only its hind legs were stuck into the glue and it twitched about frantically trying to pry itself free. Upon seeing the sight, I felt a sense of relief in having finally caught it, but also a wave of unexpected sympathy towards the helpless creature.

He was a small mouse, really he was. He hadn’t done anything to harm me physically (although he was a mental disturbance). Once trapped, I even had the notion of trying to cut him free, but the glue was too strong and I would have damaged his legs. As I carefully carried him to his garbage grave, I made a silent prayer that he would somehow die painlessly. Because he continued to struggle even inside the can, I decided to put his head near the pellets that would be his last meal.

I figure that I did what I had to do. Although I certainly do not want another mouse infestation, I wish there was a better way of setting him free. From the beginning I decided not to name the mouse for a couple reasons, one being that I didn’t want to make the arrangement personal; but through my encounters with him, I have come to a greater understanding of the relationship between all God’s creatures. Now that’s quite a tale.



QOD: “Never you mind. A guy got to sometimes.” – John Steinback,
Of Mice and Men

One More Year…

Just this past week, I celebrated my 20th birthday. The way I see things, I have one more year to go. One more year until I’m 21; one more year until I can legally drink; one more year until my last year of school. People are always telling me that I need to slow down and enjoy the time that I’m young, but I can’t. I have always been on the move and have always wanted change from the status quo. It’s not that I’m unhappy, but I just think I will be happier once I’m 21. It might have something to do with the fact that I am the youngest child in my family and the youngest employee at work. I am an ‘old soul’ trapped in a young person’s body and I just want to get out.

Happy birthday to me.



QOD: “You have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by. Yes, but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by.”
- James Barrie

Freshman Year

Freshman year of high school was quite an interesting experience. It was really a fresh start for me (no pun intended). The thing I remember most about that year was the beginning of my relationship with my fellow classmates and the attempted assimilation into the mainstream of the school. You see, AVPA was directly attached to BHS, but it was separate school. We were known throughout the “normal” high school as being the “Academy kids.” Half of our day was devoted to BHS classes (like math, world language, and gym) and the other half was exclusively Academy classes (meaning media, theatre, and humanities). For obvious reasons, my classmates and I loved our Academy classes and loathed the others.

From the first day, there was an obvious division between the two schools. Being part of the minority in a large school, we were the ones ridiculed and antagonized. The offenses aimed at us were mostly due to that fact that we were seen as being “different.” Although I had to deal with catty remarks on almost a daily basis, I was never physically confronted by someone outside of the Academy (but I know students who were). Among other things, the harassment took its toll on my classmates and, as a result, many dropped out of the school. In spite of it all, the ones of us who remained were stronger and more unified than ever before.



QOD: “The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority.” – Ralph W. Sockman